LoSt SouL

2009-12-26T20:05:00.003+08:00

Yes, friends out there, you all did not see wrongly. I'm finally blogging again... Have been real busy recently. Time doesn't seems to be enough everyday....

I'm feeling tired, with alot of things.... Think I've lost all the passions in my work... Nowadays just feeling very stress when the month end stock take is here. The stock take that we used to do is no longer the same. Haiz, to say it uglily, no matter how much we do everyday to keep the system up-to-date, when it comes to month end, we still need to do alot of adjustment.

Just wondering I can tolerate how much longer. Today went back to work, supposingly is a half working day, just because of this yearend stock take, I have to work till 3plus. The weekend is just burnt out like that....

Getting more & more no life!!!

Recently 1 of my friend kept looking for me... Feeling irritated.... Just this friend is working as an insurance advisor... To be frank, I'm not keen in meeting up. All the while we did not meet up or keep in contact. But just because they want people to sign up policies with them, so they look us up...?? Is this the reason that's why they find us...?! 无事不登三宝殿!! I can't accept such things....

Ya, not sure if this friend of mine would saw this blog or not. If he does, I'm sorry to say this, but no point keep calling us already, this will only make us keep a distance away from him.

2009-09-03T21:10:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I blog... Have been busy recently, with stock take, SAP & quotations. Everyday is the same though busy, but alot of things happened also. Sometimes really feel that humans are complicated... Sometimes just don't know how to explain or rather tired of it. Have been thinking of what happened recently, but really can't figure out, did I do something wrong or there's some problem with my attitude whether it is in work or personal.

Though there are unhappy issues, but at the same time, there are also happy things to mention. Today had fnally complete the quotations that I need to request. This time round of RFQ had a total of 20plus of items to get,as compare to all those quotations I used to get, this time round can considered the most challenging one that I had, with either price is not competitive enough or MOQ is too big. Have been working on this project's quotations for several weeks.

After today's discussion with my GM on the quotations, I really felt relieve. This time round I had really gain alot of new experience. Think this is the 1st time that I had my GM's compliment on me. Although it is just a simple "Good" & "Thank you". At least I know that my GM is satisfied with my performance this time round. Though the 1st round quotations had been completed, but there are still more to follow up after to tomorrow. Hope that everyday will be a new start...

2009-07-18T22:29:00.002+08:00

最近觉得越来越累。。对工作，对人，对自己等等。。好想去放个长假，周游列国。。最近和joanna他们约出来见面，听到了karen要去背包旅行，自己也想跟着去。。可是想想，什么都要钱。。

I've been thinking alot recently, my future, my life... Saw Jo's blog & msn nick... Got a similar thought as her, sometimes really thinking where does that 1% of hope come from... Just don't understand why some people can live their life so fufilled... Sometimes just feel like leaving this stupid place, don't have to see the people I dislike, the life I hate....

2009-06-14T16:31:00.002+08:00

A memorial day for 13/06/09, Saturday. Yesterday went to one of my cousin's house for BBQ. A great day I should say. Did anyone tried BBQ in the rain...?? Well, maybe some of you had the kind of experience before. It's my first time BBQing in the rain, haha... Everyone were trying to shelter one another, while the guys are using the ground sheet to make it as a temporary shelter for BBQing though it is raining. Hmm, kind of a different experience for BBQ. Everyone were so united at that moment, seems like it has been quite a long time since we had such a gathering. Also, we celebrated our ah kim's & my niece birthday together.

Today went for the PC Show, as usual I really dislike PC Show, the kind of crowd is tiring... Anyway, went to have some free massage at Osim & OTO booth at the PC Show. Well, tried some of the products, and mum actually bought one of the product. Hmm, I should say it's worth it. A day is gone just like that... Tomorrow will be a brand new start of the week, WORK~~ Misses school days~~ LOL...

2009-06-13T13:06:00.002+08:00

Wow, I'm officially going to declare; I'm BROKE.... Last month, I was totally broke cos I took quite a few days of leave to Korea on April. That is why my wallet burnt a big hole. This month, I've also burnt a big hole in my wallet again.

What did I spent on exactly...?? Answer is... Nothing... after deducting my commitment here and there, it is only mid of the month, guess what... I'm only left with $30 plus to survive till end of the month. Haiz, gotta dig out money already...

Just don't understand why my expenses are so high recently... Seems like my monthly expenses have increase. Note: My monthly expenses does not include my recreation, meaning I've been spending mostly on my daily allowances & transport.

God~~ Hope that I can receive the money from government ASAP... Arrrgh~~ Who can teach me how to grow more money!!!~~~

2009-06-11T20:41:00.002+08:00

好累好累。。

Recently had been busy with meetings... We are going to launch our SAP system soon... Had been going for meetings for the SAP, don't really get to know what all these are about. Next meeting will be going to M'sia. Haiz, don't know whether the next meeting will end what time. Doubt that it will end early, haha...

对人际关系，我真的觉得累了。有时真的在想，是我太敏感，还是什么。最近她怪怪的，自从我们从SAP回来后，她整个人都不一样了。如果是我的关系，大家有话就摊开来说，什么都不讲，却摆出一幅脸，自己不辛苦，别人看了都辛苦啦。。累了，也厌倦了。。最近好像没什么开心的事。。

在社会打转了越久，就领悟了越多事情。。

2009-05-19T21:10:00.003+08:00

Alot to say, alot to write... Yet I don't even know where to start... Feeling that I'm all alone.... Who is truly there for me, for me to pour my woes...

I'm all alone working all the way till June... One man show.... It's tiring... I don't know how long I can tolerate...

我越来越讨厌你！为什么那么喜欢做无聊的小动作！

2009-04-07T20:53:00.002+08:00

Yes! I'm back from Korea~~ And I have fulfilled 1 of my wish from my wishlist. Korea is such a nice place, just that the language is different which make it hard to communicate with the people there, I shall visit Korea again soon, haha... And I saw snow at Korea, my first time!! Lol...

After the trip from Korea, I realise that I'm more determined in leaving. 离开这个没意思的地方。女人的直觉永远都很准，这趟回来，直觉告诉我，我又被刺了。而且被刺得让众人都相信小人的话。

What's the point of doing so much when someone don't appreciate what you did. It's not worth to stay here when no one sees the effort that you put in. Frankly speaking, i'm angry, damn angry! 很想blog出来，但是就是不知该从何说起，只想赶快离开这里。突然有一股冲动，离开这里到国外公干，也当作去见识见识。。

2009-03-02T21:31:00.004+08:00

最近的天气反复无常，每到了中午，天空就乌云一片，总在放工的那段时间就要下雨。今天也不例外。放工时走在街上，发现了一边的天空乌云一片，而另一边则晴天一片。不久过后便下雨了。这场雨其实不是下得很久，一会儿太阳公公又出现了。走在回家的途中，我突然想起了，好久没看过彩虹了，便一直望着天空看。。还以为真的看不到彩虹了，怎么知道，就在家楼下，被我找到了它。。真的好开心。。想想，已经好久没看过彩虹了。。那一刻，突然觉得好轻松，这就是大自然的奥妙吧~~

不愉快的事，总有一天会过去的。。就像雨后总会有阳光有彩虹一样。。

2009-02-28T22:51:00.002+08:00

今天度过了很无聊的星期六。。Actually was planning to go ikea with my sis, in the end we changed our plan to tomorrow. But by looking at the situation, we might not be going to ikea tomorrow also.... Haha... Somehow feel that all the way from amk to ikea is really far... Most of the time is wasted on the travelling journey....

Today has been lazing the whole day at home... 睡得越多就越累，可是不睡还是一样累。。No matter what, I still feel recharge after a slept. Been thinking of going for a holiday, but seems like I still don't know who is available.... Anybody wanna go for a holiday???

Many plans for me to carried out, but I've been flicked minded on which to get it done. Everything is talking about money.... Still wondering if it is worth to carried out certain plan with these huge amount of money. Shall I or shall I not... Haiz~

2009-02-20T20:53:00.003+08:00

今天是个难过的星期五。。。我经历了人生里其中之一的最残酷，最残忍的一面。公司实行了第二轮的砍头。这次应该有砍了差不多10多个人吧。这一轮里，眼巴巴的看着很多交情很不错的同事一个个的被干掉，没人愿意走到那一步，就因形势所逼。大家早已有了心理准备，可是我还是不能接受。。

看着好几个交情不错的同事走了，心情好沉重。不知道大家什么时候还能在见面。今天在公司的心情真的好难过。想象下个礼拜回去，一切都已不一样了。。看到那么多同事一个个离开，我的心好酸。

看着我的store guy也走了一个，眼泪不由自主地在眼眶里打转。强忍已久的眼泪，今天在眼眶打转了无数次。。原来离开的人不会难受，最难受的还是留下来的人，看着他们一个个的走。。

*最终留下来的人，才是精英中的精英吗。。。好难受~~

2008-11-30T15:30:00.002+08:00

No activities for Sunday~~ Yesterday was suppose to be at home sleeping until late morning, but before I knock off on Friday, I was called back to work by my superior... Went to the "House of Seafood" for dinner yesterday. The place is not really big, food is bot bad... Sri Lanka crab is superb, yummy yummy~~ Haha...

Thinking of changing a new environment, but since the economic is bad now, everything is being pushed back. Though all plans are being pushed back, but certain plans is being changed and brought forward.

有时觉得好累，对好多的事好厌倦。。Just don't understand why some people can have so many happenings in life. I want to go holiday~~

2008-11-23T17:58:00.003+08:00

Time for some updates... Just attended my company's D&D during 1st Nov... So shitty, never get to win any lucky draw prize again... Nothing special for the D&D, just eat and eat. The most is to watch those show lined up for us... Recently just attended my cousin's wedding, happen that his wedding was held at Sheraton Towers Hotel, one of my vacation work place last time. Nothing much have changed. My cousin was so smart that day, cos he was in his uniform.... As usual, eat and eat for that day....

In fact, there's quite a few things happened recently. Work, friends etc. Anyway, I'm getting immune to all these, haha... Stepping out to working society can really let a person mature, learn from the reality, is either you learn from there or you take it negatively. Someone told me this: "How people look at you, is their problem, but it is how you look at yourself... People don't respect you but you have to respect yourself. In order for others to respect you, first you gotta respect yourself..."

职场上没有所谓的敌人，但也没有所谓的朋友。。。

I have been wondering, how many of you really can clearly categorise out your colleagues as friends. Can they really considered as your friends...?? A situation recently happened which let me felt disappointed.... Honestly, to find a real friend in work is hard, I've only found one... So friends out there, I treasure you all alot oh!! Haha...

Seems like I've been blogging on alot of sad issues....?? Well, in fact like what I've said, I'm immune to it.... So I did not felt unhappy about it anymore, alot of things happened, but life still gotta go on, so no point ponder over it....

2008-11-02T19:20:00.002+08:00

Last blog was ????
Has been busy for the last week, but don't know busy about what... ISO, Stock take, CA from customer audit. Suddenly realise that I owe my colleague a procedure flow for my ISO, shit~~ Gonna hear her nagging again tomorrow... Haha...

Yesterday was my company's D&D... Hmm, quite a successful event, I should say. It was quite enjoyable too.... Well, should say that the MC is great in creating the atmosphere. But i left my door gift in the cab during the journey home, shit.... Hmm, though it is just a CD, not really worth it, but thinking back, I shouldn't be so careless, lucky i did not left anything valuable in the cab...

Suddenly felt abit unhappy, alot of things in my mind. Haiz, what should I do....

2008-10-03T16:07:00.004+08:00

I'm so bored~~ Our company shutdown again, cos 1st of Oct is public holiday, and recently there's not much sales, and our boss decide to shutdown for this week. Went to the bank yesterday to settle some of my things. As for today, I was slacking the whole day at home... By right, it is a good opportunity to plan holiday trip but everything is too last minute. Even if i'm available, not everyone of my friends is available also.

Nowadays everyone is busy working and studying, wanted to meet up seems so difficult for everyone. Recently my xiao mei is so unhappy, really wanted to help her very much, really hate to see her so unhappy....

Oh ya, though shutdown but my boss had called me quite a few times already these few days... Haiz~~Really thinking whether is my carelessness in doing stock take or we are just doing verifying as we need to tally with accounts. Sometimes really feel that it is my fault. Got a few things on hand to follow up already when monday went back to office....

2008-09-06T21:28:00.002+08:00

Some updates.... Went to bugis last friday with Jo they all for dinner. A gathering for us cos my bday is coming. Well, as usual we just meet up and went to eat. Luckily Jo reach early, and we went bugis street for a walk before dinner. Saturday met up with Shunjiao... By right Serene is suppose to join us but too bad she's sick.

Went to far east and got myself a new pair of heels.... Today is a boring day... Stayed at home for the whole day. Suppose to have go out with my family to the lantern festival at chinese garden, but nobody move and everything was cancelled, haha...

Finally I have finished my ISO, but yet to confirm by my boss whether is ok or not. Anyway hopefully next week will be more relaxed... Haiz, no holiday for this sept.... Feeling so tired...

2008-08-23T12:57:00.003+08:00

As requested by Jo, I've put up my tag board... Some times really hate working.... There's alot of things to do for work recently. Our company is going for a new ISO 13485, a medical ISO. As usual, need to amend some of my process flow. Not only busy with ISO, recently seems like alot of work pile up at my side... And company is going into ERP system, meaning there's alot of work waiting for us to do before and after this ERP. Feeling stress with work, personal and many.... Never really feel happy after graduate, don't know how to let myself really relax. Maybe I should go for a short holiday.

Thinking of closing this blog already. Well, maybe I WILL delete this blog after some times. Anyway, will open up a new link for my blog. Template etc will remain the same, cos I'm lazy to make the changes, haha... Recently seems like some aliens been browsing it.

That day I was playing with my blog, realise that I can set security for my blog, haha... Blur me for owning this blog so long and not knowing about it. Maybe I can set security for the new one, but those friends will have to type in the password.... Well, shall see how 1st....

2008-08-01T23:11:00.003+08:00

Finally, I'm done with my new template for the blog. Anyway never get the whole template done from the scratch, just went to website to download and amend some of the parts. So, I did not really waste my effort in poly, still remember some of the codes. Trying to figure out how to make my picture move, so I can include a few more pictures. Anyway, forget it....

Never really explore my blog until today. So there's alot of things that I can do, haha... Anyway, shall do it again next time, when I feel like playing with it. Now feel like zzZz already....

2008-07-30T20:32:00.002+08:00

Been blogging recently, went to search for new template for the blog.
Abit tired on the blog skin I have now.
Manage to find some thing simple but still ok one.
Need to study on the scripts before I can edit anything to the template.
But seems like my html scripts are rusty, can't remember some of the html scripts.
Need to add in alot of scripts again, haiz....

Got my appraisal from my manager last few days....
And it's increment month for July~~
Satisfied or not with the results....???
No comments~~

I want to go holiday~~~
Never plan any holiday trip this year.... Sian~~
Jo going holiday again, wanna join her....??
Maybe I should ask 1 or 2 more people to go with me....
Cos this gal is going with her friends....

Or maybe I shall wait till next year....??
Cos there's alot of public holidays fall before the eve of weekends....
Anyway, planning to go Korea with Jo they all next year...
Hopefully there won't be any plan change last minute.....

2008-07-29T21:17:00.002+08:00

这两天想了很多。。。
好多事想说。。。
可是开不了口。。。
即使说了，有用吗。。。
我所承受的你会知道吗。。。

这个世界是不公平的。。。

2008-07-28T12:58:00.003+08:00

Yesterday my cousin came over for dinner.... Haha.... While having dinner together, we started to talk craps. Suddenly he ask me about going into a relationship... Well, he also mention this; when you are in love, never loved your boyfriend too much.... How true it is, maybe we should go through the stage in order to conclude....?? In fact, I feel so too, can't help to agree with what he said.

今天很monday blues + irritating nose, making my days miserable.... Daring me to blog in office, cos is lunch time now, and not much people in the office. Really feel sleepy whenever after lunch, can't help.... Suddenly feel that I'm starting to get used to alot of things....

时间不能让人忘记很多人与事
但它能让你学会去习惯

2008-07-27T21:02:00.002+08:00

A sick day again....
病人是不是特别会想事情。。。
想了好多事与人。。。

Am I wrong...
Think I need a good rest
But I just can't

Antz is dead....

2008-07-25T23:55:00.008+08:00

从来没把你的话当耳边风。。。
You force me to go against you.....
是你叫我别管你。。。
既然你不要我管你，那你又何必管我。。。

心酸酸的。。。
Think I'm down with flu again...
So is my family members...
Thanks to the who and who for passing the virus around...
And thanks to the "good" weather...
An excuse for me to MC again....??
Probably....
Shall see how serious is my flu when Monday is reaching....

2008-07-24T20:49:00.002+08:00

It's been some time since I blog again. Nowadays I'm so lazy to blog. Suddenly feel that the times during school days compare to work is actually more. Used to sleep very late during school times, won't even feel tired after that. But since the day I started out working, everyday is so tired. Can't even burn midnight oil, seems like everyday do not have enough sleep. Due to the stress, the responsibilities that make me tired everyday...?? Maybe, who knows....

Meeting up with jo they all tomorrow. Hmm, to celebrate karen's bday. Think most probably is having dinner and chit chat. Don't think there will be any programme after that. Saturday will meet up with serene and shunjiao. Going for ktv session, maybe after that shopping, haha... Oh no, should say I will go shopping with serene 1st cos we meet at 1pm. Hopefully I can get some thing for myself, has been quite some times since I buy anything....

2008-06-22T15:00:00.002+08:00

已经有好一段时间没blog了。。。最近也没什么特别的事发生，每天就是过着重复性的生活。那天分别和joanna & mandy出去。原以为可以买到一些东西，怎么知道却是他们买到了，我却没有。有时真的很想买，可是想到还要try，就打消了念头，这样也好，可以把钱省下来。

最近也领悟到了一些事。。。做好人不一定会有好报。是不是真的把错推到别人的身上，自己才会好过。这不是专牛角尖的行为吗。。。难道专牛角尖会比面对现实来的容易。。。有些人的关心一直都是打从心里的，为何要说对方不关心呢。。。？为何要说是因某某人告诉了他，他才会去关心呢。。。？难道你自己没有错。。。？是谁把关心自己的那个人给骂走的，从头到尾，对方根本没离开过你，从没有不关心你。。。

From that incident onwards, i realise and understand. I won't do anything else. Never will I be a busybody to help the both of you. You never appreciate that person, when he is there for you, you just think that all the care and concern from him is not from the bottom of his heart, just because i mention to him, then he concern about you. But did you ever think that you are the one who scold him off. From the day you start to scold him every time he called you, he did not stop to call you, until don't know when he is scared to call you, till he don't dare to call you, and till now he don't want to call....

做人有时不要太过分，你对他凶，他拿你没折，他怕你，他让你，不代表你可以这样。You might think that i'm siding him, but some times I really feel that you are too much. Rest assured, I would never do anything for the both of you anymore..

2008-05-17T20:01:00.002+08:00

Wow, my last blog was in March.... Really hasn't been blogging for a very long time. Life seems to go smoothly for me, but behind all these, there's also a tedious road for me. It is not good at all.... I'm just standing at the cross junction of the road now, don't really know which way I should go. Hopefully I won't be making any wrong choice.... Will US delcare recession again, affecting the whole economy, by then I will be making the wrong choice....?? Alot of things to look out for now. Someone said I've grown up, matured as compared to when I just started working, am I?? Who knows....

Last few days was being scolded by my superior... Too much for him, no point to mention, but really hate him. Not even my parents will say that kind of words to me when I always failed my exams in primary school. Friends advice me not to be too impulse to resign just because of his 1 word. It is true, but I suddenly can't see any prospects here no matter how long I stay. Maybe I should keep a lookout now, and analyze the situation out there.

现在的我，已学会把事情隐藏在心里。。。只是说些无关紧要的事。。。

如果我有魔法，我会把你从我记忆里删除，让你不曾出现在我生命里。。。

2008-03-04T21:16:00.002+08:00

Wow, last blog was on 19th Jan. Last month was busy enjoying my cny, after cny start to work. Feb was a very short month, started stock take abit early. Haha.... Everything seems so short for Feb, can't remember what I did during Feb. Sometimes reali like cny, get to drink at all means I want. Got to taste different alcohol during cny at one of my cousin's house.

This month seems to be a busy month for me. In fact, not only me but for my whole company. Had internal audit going on and customer will be coming to audit us after the internal audit. Today start the internal audit, my dept was the 1st to be audit. And i'm the 1st to go for the audit. Haiz, it was a great experience for me today. Tedious, but at least I've gain some knowledge today. After this audit, I'm much more familiar with the company process flow and I understand much more in depth about my dept work flow and how each department interlink.

Since I have qualified for the internal audit, this year I will have to be an auditor also. Another day to go... Hopefully, everything will goes well for the audit.

2008-01-19T21:39:00.000+08:00

18 Jan 08... A great nite to have.... Yesterday is Jay's Chou concert, and it is also his bday. Elaine, wc and me went to his concert yesterday, a great concert from him. Since it was his bday yesterday, we sang bday song to him. The whole nite was very high, everyone enjoyed his concert. When his concert ended, we encored for 2 times. That was when we are more high... Jay is so attractive... He changed a few costume yesterday, but the one that i like most is the suit that is all white.... So charming~~ Haha... Shall go to his concert again in future if he ever coming to singapore again.

Yesterday reached home at 12.30 and today woke up at 10plus. Wasted a whole saturday... Went to the salon today for a hair cut, treatment and rebond. And my whole day is wasted there, tiring sia.... Not very satisfied with this time round hair do, mayb i'm so used to long hair, suddenly felt that i got them to cut too short. And i actually wanted my fringe to be short, but id did not turn out to be what i want... Haiz, abit disappointed. Don't think I'll rebond again after this, mayb will wait quite sometime b4 i rebond again... Shall see how again....

2008-01-15T21:09:00.001+08:00

Finally, I can have a good rest... My company event finally ended on last saturday. Hmm, should considered a successful event, the whole event ended on time. Although there is some hiccups before and during the event, but we still can play around with the time and everything still ended as we expected.

Everyone enjoyed the whole event, I should say. Me, a yes and no.... There's a mixture of feelings for that day. Suddenly saw another side of my superior and boss. And suddenly feel that even though they are my bosses and superior, we still can hang around together. That moment, felt that we are just like friends.... Appreciate that they really seen our hard work in preparing for this company event. A memorable nite to remember 12 Jan 08....

After the whole event, everyone left really fast. Leaving us RC members, and bosses to cheer for the successful event. After that we went for 2nd round.... Supper!!! Cos the food there doesn't really taste good. And we did not really had our dinner. Thks for Lay Peng's treat that nite. Cos she got her 5 years service award.... Though it is just a simple dim sum treat, but think we really enjoy alot....

2007-12-29T17:51:00.000+08:00

Saturday~~~ It has been a tiring week.... Today went for work, my turn to work on saturday. Also because of year end stock take, I gotta go back.... Work OT for yesterday and today. Imagine working OT for saturday, 1 word: Sian.... But got no choice cos auditor coming on monday. Ended joseph and me working OT... Seems like both of us are the most pathetic person in our dept, cos we always got alot of things to settle.... 2 words to describe this week, Super tiring...

Though tiring for stock take, but I also felt the care and concern from some of my colleagues. So touched cos they look after me alot. Even my assistant also help me out with all his best.... But sometimes just don't understand why some ppl can sneak through their life so easily. Maybe thats why they are call "xiao ren"...

Later going to jackie and khim's house. Meanwhile waiting for elaine to come and fetch me, I'm blogging, haha... So eager to watch the videos and photos taken at jackie's wedding....

2007-12-25T19:47:00.000+08:00

Some updates again.... Been lazing at home for a few days. Company shutdown on 24th Dec, so don't have to work. Long holiday eh, ya.... But after this long holiday, everyday will be very busy. Busy with year end stock take, company's D&D etc. Still have not got any quotations for vans or lorries for company.

Nothing special for this x'mas... Never went for countdown etc, lazy going out.... Nothing to celebrate also. My 1st greetings for x'mas is from SY. Cos yesterday night was chatting on the phone with SY. After x'mas, a new year will be coming soon. Recap on what I've did for this year?? Alot of things happened, good and bad.... A year seems to pass so fast, esp after x'mas... Hope that a new year will have a new start and a smooth year.... Haiz, a new year comes meaning old liao... Haha....

Reali have a lot of wishes for the coming new year... But will wishes reali come true....?? Sometimes feel that good things doesn't comes, but bad things always appear so frequently.... Alot of wishes, sincerely wish that everyone will have a great start and a smooth year... May all my loved ones have a great life....

2007-12-24T12:32:00.000+08:00

Ok, updates updates..... Hada great saturday last week. Went to attend Khim's & Jackie's wedding on 22/12/07, saturday. Xiao mei, Wc & I reached early around 5pm to help out at the reception. Wow, it was busy at that time..... But at the meantime, it's very fun....

The dinner is very normal, just like every wedding dinner... We reali sabo the brides groom when he came to our table for "yum seng".... After the whole dinner, we went for second round. We went back to the hotel for the second round, had drinking session again. Funy nite, Jimmy was drunk after the dinner, he was so cute~~ Think he brings alot of laughter for us on that day.... Jie jie is also very caring that day, feel soooo touched....

Everyone is so happy that day, seems like there's no boundaries in everyone of us. Well, stayed until 1plus that day... Reali had a great nite, felt so fantasy... Haha.... Photos?? Of cos there is... Shall upload those photos when i'm free, hehe...

2007-12-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

Hmm, reali had not been blogging for quite some time.... Well, some updates for what had happen lately. Last saturday went to Catherine's house for bbq, a simple gathering for office staffs.... Just had bbq and some card games after that. "In-Between" really is a heart attack game, you might find the chances of winning high, but in the end you can still lose.... Haha... Catherine's house is quite big, with those great spa, gym etc facilities....

Recently work is rather busy. What am I busy with...? Of course, busy with work and lately busy with company's x'mas lunch preparation and upcoming company's annual event... Time passes very fast, another year is going to pass soon. X'mas is around the corner, suddenly misses winny, she had left us and went overseas for almost a year... Hope that she's doing fine there. Had a summary, this 1 year alot of things had happen, but there is always sunshine after the rain.

Today went to work after so many shutdown on saturdays. Nothing special but had a meeting again with my lao da and colleagues for the stock take. After work, went straight home and took a nap... Went for dinner at amk hub and shop for x'mas present. This year seems like I had spent quite an amount for x'mas present. Haiz, still miss out 2 more which I haven't got for my frens. NO TIME NO TIME le.... Sob sob... Busy busy~~

2007-11-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

Suddenly don't know wanna blog about what.... These few days alot of things happen, things which are unexpected. Stone for some time, but still don't know wanna write what.

Tomorrow on leave, going chalet with xiao mei. But don't think I will stay overnight... Tired, Exhausted, with everything that happened. Think I'm leaving that sad place soon... A place with alot of happy and sad memories...

2007-10-27T18:13:00.000+08:00

Yes, a quick updates.... Yesterday supposed to be a very free day cos it's friday. But to me it's just the opposite. Went to molex for a briefing on on ROHS. The whole briefing took us less than an hour, think it only took us about half an hour. But the travelling time to and fro took us around an hour plus. So after the briefing, we went for lunch then back to office. The moment i reach office, something urgent from SL which need to settle, but it's lunchtime so i went for lunch again with wc... Acc wc for lunch at kfc....

After back from lunch, hurry to settle SL's shipment, luckily everything went quite smooth. Don't really have a time to relax myself, I went for meeting again. Our 1st recreation committee meeting, fun and relax. It took us about an hour plus. The whole meeting end around 4pm, that is the time i when i really got to do my own stuffs... Everything was settled on time... Haha...

As for today... I've been lazing at home again, no where and don't feel like going anywhere. Actually was asked to go out with xiao mei and AL, but in the end i choose not to go. Surprised?? In fact, i should take this good opportunity to go, but i really need time to pick up my emotions.

2007-10-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

Haha... Has been almost a month.... Saw the tag that liyi post... Ok, as request by liyi, i shall blog something. Actually don't really know what to blog. Meet up with shunjiao, chun, liyi and hongyun last friday, cos that coming saturday is hongyun's bday. Well, hongyun is still the same old chap, craps everywhere... Last friday was quite surprised, sy called me... To be frank, never expect it at all, cos usually he will only reply thru sms instead of call. That day considered having a long chat with him, luckily i'm about to sat bye to chun they all. He accompanied me thru my journey back home.... We had talked on quite a few things, seems like he is hinting something, but both of us just never say anything...

Just now was reading up yeo's blog... Some of the things that he blog reminds me alot of things. The blog on "regrets"and "quote". Ya, who doesn't have regrets... The most regretful thing in my life up till now is still the issue that i can't let go. Am i too stupid to believe in someone? Suddenly feel that the time is up, is time to let go... Whether i can or not, i got to let go already.

Am i being hard hearted?? Is it wrong to be hard hearted?? Am i being selfish to be hard hearted?? Maybe a yes to all these... But at least it is easier for him to let go as he may feel shattered after trying to salvage this friendship but i tried to spoil everything. To him, i've already changed... Sad, hurt, disappointed... After that period of understanding, and this thing happened, i've finally heard the most unwanted things from him: "I've changed alot"... All i can say is "Changed, because being forced by the environment..."

2007-09-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

I'm pissed off today, I'm very angry with all that I've heard today. All people are so fake!! Recently I've been thinking alot... Work, relationship with friends, colleagues etc. Suddenly feel that ever since I started out working, I've never blog about any happy issues, seems like all I've blog nowadays are either angry with this, sad on this etc. Am I thinking too much or what?? Have I changed?? Today my new laoda held a meeting with our department. Finally he had held his 1st meeting with us. I'm not pleased with the meeting, I'm angry!!

Seems like I doesn't belong to this department, all matters discussed in the meeting are about planners stuff, so what about my raw material. Without my raw material, can all your finished goods be produced out... All they think of are their finished goods.... Thought we should keep more raw material instead of those buffer goods?

And what kind of laoda are you?? You are not specialised in our area, fine... Everyone needs time to picked up. Our department got 5 office staffs including me, but 3 out of 5 are planners, but only me, 1 junior buyer.... And as a laoda, you said in such a sarcastic way that you won't handle buyer's stuffs!! You think it's the right thing??!!! What the fuck!! So I'm the independent party!! And with a xiao ren around, who just take the opportunity to bootlick laoda, damn you idiot!! What "fa fen tu qiang"!!! You are just being ya ya... How long can I stay here?? Really feel like telling him about all these, but I can't..... I'm starting to lose hopes......

2007-09-16T20:21:00.000+08:00

Some things happen last week. What exactly happen I also can't explain. Last saturday meet up with ax at night. We went for movie at amk hub and after that we went to S-11 for a drink. We chatted from 11 to about 2am. After that day, we did not look for each other, usually we will sms or chat on the phone. Since he never msg me that sunday, I also never bother that much. But that day I did sense that something has happened, something is wrong... I do know what has happened though ax never tell me anything. But maybe some things is better not to mention.

We did not talk to each other for a few days, he did msg me saying he need some time for some thinking... He also msg me a few things, somehow he make me feel that I've drag him in.... Ever since that few days, we did start talking to each other, we seems to be ok with each other. But some things have changed, only me and him know about it.

That day had a chat with ax on the phone.... He mention some thing to me that day... Those things that he said brought back alot of my memories, let me thought of a person... Can I be like him?? Some things are not meant to be mine, learning to let go??? I'm all alone at home now, suddenly thinking of alot of things, I'm starting to 转牛角尖 again.... 我的要求很简单，但是为什么却不能实现.....

2007-09-04T22:21:00.000+08:00

刚刚在不久前过完了生日。可是在生日的前一天却收到了个坏消息。我认识了10年的朋友过世了。是因为车祸。。。虽然不是什么很要好的朋友，但毕竟是认识了10年多。想起中学的那段时期，好心痛。。。他大我5天，也算刚过完生日，因为他生日那天我有事，结果没去他的生日会，后来就听到他于世长绝的消息。。。希望他在另一个世界，会有新的生活。。。我们会永远记得你的。。。

今年的生日过得很感动。。。Thank you xiao mei, wc, joseph and AL.... 今年的生日是在公司度过。还蛮惊讶的，因为不熟的同事也知道是我的生日。最感动还是小妹他们为我做的。当天收到小妹的生日email，在读的当儿，我的眼泪不由自觉地掉了下来。想起了好多事情，email 的内容也令我感动。。原来我还是接受不了，有些事情不是那么容易说放就放的。现实永远都要这么惨酷吗？

曾经的知己，好友，现在却几乎变成了陌生人。。。有人问我，今年的生日愿望是什么。。我回答了，看似是个很容易的愿望，但实际上却很难成真。我是不是很笨，还抱着一线希望。。。

有个朋友送了我这句话：“快乐的开始，不该悲伤的结束。。。”

我也会永远记得这句话：“我是你的天使，你也是我的天使。我是你永远最爱的宝贝！”

2007-08-19T17:06:00.000+08:00

Yes, I'm here to blog today again..... Cos too boring already. It has been raining these fea days, a good weather to sleep at home. Rainy days, alot of things for me to think when it comes to rainy days. It will bring back alot of memories....

Tomorrow will be a brand new day, brand new week again, haha... Well, tomorrow got to go for course already. 1st day of my course for negotiation skills. After graduating from poly for a year, tomorrow is my 1st day to go back for study. But this time round I'm no longer a full time student.... Think it will gonna be very tiring, but what to do, somehow I'm upgrading myself also. Tiring as in rushing for lesson after work... Gosh, at bukit merah, meaning i must rush from ubi to bukit merah, and lesson end at 10pm, tavel for another hour to go back home.

Well, got to bear for a month cos this is only a month course. Worse thing is, there is exam for this course, i hate exams!! Don't know if it is going to be a practical exam or theory.... I don't mind to be theory, practical think i'm not going to make it.... There will be stress for this course, cos company is paying for me, meaning I MUST pass the exams, else think boss will be unhappy...

Going for course alone, i hate the kind of feeling.... So weird, so boring..... Today lazing at home for the whole day.... Wasting a day's time don't know doing what.... Been thinking about something these few days after meet up with sy for dinner that day... When are you going to come back, my ax kor kor~~

2007-08-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

Have been bothering about something lately. Next week will be my lao da's last week in Micro. Meaning new superior is coming, although is an ex-colleague of Micro, but still is a new superior to me. Don't really know how it will be when new superior take over. Will I still have my freedom like now, or am I restricted? Understand from my colleague that he don't like people to msn, also he will also know if you are working or not. But some things are hard to say, it's not that we don't want to work but if we have finished it, there's nothing we can do.

Well, pray hard that everything will be fine. Anyway, just realised that new superior came on the 1st day, I'll be going to course. Meaning I won't see him on his first 2 days..... This week Ax went back, so nobody there to "fan"me. Haha... But at least he got the heart to tell me when he is going back....

2007-08-05T17:37:00.000+08:00

I'm back for blog again. Nowadays, don't really wanna blog, though there might be something to say. Seems like nowadays I've blog alot of unhappy things more than happy. To be frank, don't know since when, alot of unhappy things seems to happen.

Last friday, my superior held a meeting with us, she break out a news to us. After hearing it, my tears almost roll down, yet I have to control. Maybe alot of people out there will feel happy about it, but to me i don't really feel good. In fact, i should be happy also, haha... But I finally realise, No!! I feel sad...

How I spend my this weekend? Boring.... Stay at home for 2 weekends, don't know wanna go where, so just stay at home and nua.... Yesterday Ax called me... Morning called 4 times purposely to disturb me, cos he knew I'm still sleeping, afternoon also called me, and happen that I'm taking a nap, haha.... But this time round he never called to disturb me, just wanna see what I'm doing, but I also never let him know I'm sleeping, else he wanna say me again, haha...

Well, last nite Ax called me also. Normal casual chat, but he finally told me something that I always ask him, he will avoid de. Well, he don't have the courage to say whenever I ask him, but he said that don't know why yesterday he can say it out. He said alot of things... But some thing I can only act blur... Haha...

2007-07-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

Yeah, weekend again... But this saturday is my turn for duty, got to go back to work. Recently sales drop drastically due to big customer shut down. Everyone in office is soooo free. Even Cy also complain free, keep walking around at the production floor. Hmm, recently Cy seems to hala and disturb me alot.... Don't know he eat wrong what medicine. Don't know if i should say it's a good thing or what.

Haiz, know xiao mei is worried about me. But seems like she keep asking me to be careful with Cy and Ax. To xiao mei, she worried me with both these 2 person, but to Wc she's more worried about me with Ax... But to me, i think they think too much already, haha... All the while, i just want things to be simple, in fact everything is very simple, no matter is Ax, Cy, JL etc. They are all just colleagues whom we hala during work only.

To be frank, only AL is the only guy whom is my colleague and after work is my friend. Someone whom i reali treasure and trust. No doubts on each other. Just hope that things will turn better ... I'm no longer as cheerful as i am... Maybe in front of people, i look the same, no difference, but recently suddenly seems to be very quiet in front of those close khakis... Sorry i don't mean to be this way, but just don't feel like speaking, so xiao mei u all don't worry for me too much. I'm not thinking of what, just don't feel like talking only...

2007-07-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! I'm back again.... Haha... Fall sick again last few days... What happen to me??? Lol, well this time round i'm not the only one sick, my mum and sis fall sick too. Just that I'm the 1st to take effect. Woke up in the middle of the night on monday, vomit and diarrhea. So went to see doctor on the following day and got 2 days mc from my doctor. But also got a jab cos I'm not able to take any food, even drink water will also vomit.

Of cos, now I'm fine... Back to 蹦蹦跳跳 antz.... Lolx... Went to sentosa with Jo and fay today. Not a very good weather today, but at least it never rain all the way when we were cycling. Haiz, Ax went back to M'sia... Feel abit sian, but he's not around also good, cos he won't be asking me alot of weird questions which will give me alot of question marks.

SY sms me today, asking whether I'm seriously sick.... All thanks to Mr CY, think he's trying to tease me and SY, else he wants to find out if me and SY got contact frequently or not...

2007-07-06T16:27:00.000+08:00

It's been quite some time for me to blog. Well, everyday busy working. Recently have fall sick. And I've been sick for 1 week, meaning I've been on mc for 1 week, from monday till friday. Haiz, next monday will have alot of things waiting for me to do. Yesterday went for blood test at Tan Tock Seng Hospital. Got my blood test taken twice. Blood test taken by nurse and doctor is really totally different. Now my left hand feel so painful and swollen, all thanks to the nurse.

Well, though I'm on mc, i still feel quite touched. Alot of my colleagues did send sms to me. Da ge also send sms to me. In fact, this 1 whole week he has been sending sms to ask and console about me. Ya, just like what xiao mei say, da ge still care for us.... Well, ax and sy also sms me. Surprise me is ax msg me. Well, he still got the heart, know that i'll feel bored, so sms me to disturb me, haha...

Haiz, this whole week really is miserable. Staying at home 1 whole week. Though i feel better now, but now my hands and legs are full of rashes.... Well, shall recover soon....

2007-06-05T21:26:00.000+08:00

Last week is a long weekend for me. Vesak day was on thursday, so our company shutdown on from friday to sunday. Last weekend is considered one of the happiest day since the incident happen till now. Went to have dinner at amk's new york new york on friday nite. Well, it seems to be a warm up for the both of us.

Saturday we went out again. Went to the IT fair at suntec. But never really get to see anything, cos too many people already. In fact, nothing to buy also. After the IT fair, we went to ktv. Had a drink at ktv, cos xiao mei can't drink much, so we only give her half glass of beer. Somehow don't feel good at the ktv, cos i start to realise something. When a thing has changed, it will never be back to what it used to be. After the ktv, we went to have a drink again. The drinking session is really a happiest thing we had. We seems to be back to what it is.

But everything seems to be a dream after that. The next day, everything seems to be back to normal, well we finally start to talk etc. But since certain things happen, we are very clear that we can't be back to what it is. I'm starting to get used to what it is now, but never will i forget those happy moments we had before. And neither will i forget the days that we went out on last weekend. 时间能让人学会习惯，但不能让人学会忘记。。。

2007-05-20T16:16:00.000+08:00

It has been a month since everything happen till now. Don't feel any better in fact, though i might look happy everyday. Is that the real me??? No longer anymore. I'm no longer being treated the way it is as before. Though we had cleared everything, but everything has changed. Well, he is still concern about me, but we can no longer joke as before.... As what we used to joke.

Maybe it's true, we need some time to warm up. But what's changed will not be back to what it is. I told him that i hate her alot. We are at fault, but we did nothing. She makes everything turn out this way. Feeling so so so tired... Sometimes even me myself don't know what i want and how i feel, why i feel this way. The pain is unbearable, i'm getting more and more emotional....

2007-04-27T23:03:00.000+08:00

没有开始，哪儿来的结束。。。没来的恋爱，哪儿来的失恋。。。That's what i'm thinking now. 对你难道是开始了，所以你才会说出结束吗？答案也只有你自己最清楚，就有如我一样，只有我最清楚自己的答案。It has been about 2 weeks since things happen, and both of us are very clear now that there's no way back to what it is as before.

I'm a curious person... 为何你要用结束来回答? 没开始, 又怎么会结束? 对你难道算是开始了吗? 真的很不习惯, 可是又能如何. 只能压抑自己, 学着去习惯.... 你我都很清楚自己的答案, 可能你我都猜到彼此的答案, 但又能如何呢?

我会永远记得有个守护着我的天使..... 你也会记得吧.... 该是放下的时候了, 对你和我都是很艰难吧, 但是办法.... 你留了一样东西给我, 但你也拿走了我一样东西.... 两样都令我痛苦.... 这次我又需要多久的时间呢......

2007-04-17T16:46:00.000+08:00

I'm tired!!!~~~~ I've cried... Eva since my grandmother and sis passed away, this is the 1st time i've cried. And i 've cried alot of times, my eyes are swollen. 我真的好累。。。Every thing has comes to an end. I'm goin to lose my right hand, i feel handicapped. I can't do anything, i got no choice, I have to let go of him. The same goes to him. Today is goin to be mark down as a change for me. Alot of things will be different.

We don't wish that things will turn out this way. Nobody wants, but it just happen. I'm in the wrong, so does he.... I got all my khakis involve. I'm sori... I got you all to be miserable together with me. Lee Eng is goin to change, i won't be a Ann Lee Eng anymore since this thing had happen.... 我真的好累好累！！！You are trying to protect me?? But the way you protect is wrong. I don't blame you, anyway i still want to say thank you. Don't feel guilty or 对不起 towards me....

There's alot of things i want to know from you, but i know you won't tell me or talk to me anymore. You doesn't want and don't know what to say anymore. 我们都累了。。。我好难过，没人能帮得了我们。。。。

2007-04-08T18:39:00.000+08:00

Wah..... So boring!!! Came in to blog, but dunno what to write.... Today have been lazing at home for whole day, oh yah.... Went sao mu in the afternoon.... Everything was done b4 the rain came... Actually dislike sao mu alot, cos must go with my dad.

Haiz, back from hk trip, i'm being juiced dry. This coming saturday will be going to a colleague's wedding. It's the beginning of the month, and my pay is going to used up soon, how to survive till month end. Kelvin will be back, think he's reaching spore soon, gonna mit up with him... Well, meaning gonna spend $$$ again... Argggggggh!!! Looking forward to mit up with him, but the moment i think of spending $$$$, Oh No!!!!

Hasn't been keeping in contact with yuen kuang for a long time, think must find a day to give him a call for a chat. Well, he's someone whom i can talk everything under the sun. One of my gd advisor..... Wondering what he has been doing... MIA liao??? Haha.... Actually have not been miting up with alot of frens..... Haiz~~

I IS NOT HAPPY!!! WHY??? I ALSO DON'T KNOW!!! SINCE I'VE GRADUATE AND STEP INTO WORKING SOCIETY....

2007-04-06T17:14:00.000+08:00

Back from HongKong!!!~~ Reached singapore on the 2nd Apr. Well, feel that i dun hav enuff time to reali explore hongkong. Reali tired cos everyday woke up so early, and we actually walk alot, and we got back to hotel everyday late.... Went to alot of places, lantau island, ocean park, disneyland, the peak etc. Abit disappointed cos never get to go on jumbo, haiz.....

Though I'm on holiday that time, i'm still worried.... As what i expect, i'm being bomb alot when i'm not around.... But lucky that i still got a few colleagues there to help me.... The most impt thing is i got a guardian angel, who always there for me!!

2007-03-25T21:08:00.000+08:00

Last minute went out with joanna on friday. Haiz, pathetic man... She was wearing heels and when i'm wearing heels she is already very tall liao, that day i'm not wearing any heels. Imagine when we were walking together. Haha.... Got a treat from her that day, cos she owe me de, haha. In fact, i already forgotten about it, surprise that she still remember.

Meet up with my colleagues after work on saturday. Cos she's bringing her son out. He was kawaii, reali. But after carrying him, reali is tiring... Nw my hand is aching!!! Yeah, i'm flying off to hongkong in a few days time. Well, feeling excited, happy and abit sad.... Haiz, influence by someone, cannot stand it.

2007-03-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

It has been quite some times since i update my blog. Hmmm, almost a month i suppose. Eh, what to blog.... Work?? Oh ok, 1 of my colleague resign, my planner. Been liasing with her since i came in to work. After all it is not that bad, quite sad that she left us but wish her all the best in her new job.

Well, since she had left us of cos there'll be a ne colleague coming. This time is a guy, but no experience in planning. My superior at first intend to transfer and train me to be a planner. The prospects of a planner is not bad actually, but i'm really not prepared. Cos i've just settle down being a purchaser.

Yeah!! A week more, and i'll be going to hongkong for holiday. This time round is free and easy. Well, going with my sis and her frens again. All big sisters.... Eager and happy for this holiday trip, cos can take a break again. Hmm, abit 不舍得 too... Will someone be really missing me?? 小妹 will be missing me?? I think so, haha...

2007-02-21T13:35:00.000+08:00

What to blog for today.... Well, my mind is blank now, haha.... What have i been doing for the past few days on CNY?? Hmm, this yr new yr is damn tiring for me. Much more tiring than i'm working, haha... Mayb everyday got to sleep very late, and need to wake up soooo early. Went to my cousins hse last few days. As usual, go there for gambling, ktv, drinking and eating. Abit boring eh, lolx...

This yr, don't reali feel like gambling.... But i still manage to win small small.... Betta than nothing. Went to 1 of my cousin's hse that day, we had our usual drinking session. This time my 表姐夫 prepared different kinds of wine, wow~~ I had 1 can of beer, 2 red wine, 1 white wine and 1 more which is called rose, a sparkling wine. All taste not bad not excluding the beer, of cos... Haha... Well, surprised i'm not drunk.... But we went back quite early tat day, usually we would stay till 1plus or 2 and go home.

Yesterday went to sec frens hse, well i oni went to 2 frens hse, after that gotta rush to my cousin's hse. Hmm, it has been sometimes since i saw them, but dunno why yesterday i'm so quiet, lolx. Though i can join them to gamble, but i just dun hav the mood to play, lolx.... No feel yet, i think.

2007-02-15T20:28:00.000+08:00

It's getting nearer to CNY. These few days are so miserable in the office, as CNY is drawing near, alot of my colleagues take leave and went back to their hometown. Our company reali employ alot of foreigners. It's getting more quiet in the office, but it has also been rather busy for me these few days. Suppose to be much more free, but just dun understand how come there's still things for me to be busy with. Haha...

Though CNY is drawing near, there's not much excitement for me this yr. Don't know why, haha.... Think I'm falling sick again, still haven reali recover from the flu. Yesterday was more serious, luckily i still got the medicine. Haiz, missed my da ge and colleague soooo much. Both went back to M'sia liao, so miserable in the office. Lolx...

Haiz, quite worried about xiao mei oso... Hopefully that her problems can be settled soon. Relationship problems, nobody can help out... Personal opinion can be given but no guidances or solutions can be reali provided...

2007-02-10T23:18:00.000+08:00

A week is going to pass. CNY is coming... Yeah~~~ Yearning for CNY to come actually, not because of getting ang baos, but a long holiday that is ahead. Expected what kind of questions will be ask by relatives this year liao, haiz~~~ Well, I'll be starting work on the 26th instead. Those who want to ask me out, feel free, haha... It might seems good, but having this long holiday, is going to deduct my AL. So shitty... After coming back, will be my stock take again, it'll be a bad wk for that, haha....

These few days have been thinking alot.

2007-02-02T12:35:00.000+08:00

今天拿了 mc。。。Morning sms my boss telling her I'm not feeling well, going to see doctor. In the end, got to know from 小 joan that boss is on mc also, not here. Today my department reali got no government. Haha... I should appear for work right, but i reali cannot tahan liao, lolx...

Well, my dept only 2 person working today only, hehe.... Power right. Boss and me on mc, the other colleague on leave, shiok for 小 joan if nothing urgent approached, but she'll be boring cos me and QL is not here.

Later meeting up Liling, haha... Mc still can mit her right, she's nt betta than me, cos she got the flu from me too... Today bring my baby pooh and darling bear for a shower, nw they are sparkling clean, somebody cannot say me liao. Lolx.

Sometimes reali find that 大哥 treat me very gd, so touched... Hehe... Heard something from him yesterday. After hearing, i'm reali very pissed off, but 大哥 actually voiced out for me that day on this issue. His 1 sentence actually make that person's face turn black, and that person can only be LL... Power sia... 不愧是我的大哥！！！Quite happy and touched there's someone to help me voice out....

2007-01-31T21:36:00.000+08:00

我生病了！！感冒了。。。真辛苦，原本想在昨天拿 mc 的。可是因为是月底，要 stock take 所以干脆就不拿。今天也是，而且今天还得去 seminar，真讨厌。。。今天的 seminar 让我睡着了好几次，无聊死了，我宁愿呆在办公室，更好。唯一的好处，就是能早回家。

上完 seminar 后，还是不知道讲师在说什么。想一想，这是我毕业后第一次上 seminar。真觉得我不是读书的料。好久没跟中学和 poly 的朋友见面了，真不知道他们最近如何？好想念你们哦！！

2007-01-28T01:03:00.000+08:00

Recently have been going out with my colleagues alot. Went to shop for new year clothes. Well, not bad, almost got all the clothes that i want already. Have been going out with my colleagues for consecutive wkends.

Somehow felt that i've neglected my frens... Secondary or poly frens... Well, not that i dun wan to go out with them, but reali dunno whether they free or nt. Some of them reali must wait for ppl to date them, then they will say ok. Why can't they take the initiative to ask 1st? Is it that difficult to just send a msg or call and mit up.

Not trying to pin point on who, but this is what i've suddenly felt while writing my blog. Sooooo tired, might be going out again on monday. Haiz, dunno whether want to go out or not, lolx... Abit lazy in fact. Today went quite a few places, aft work went to orchard. Then from orchard back to amk, aft tat to causeway point. Abit boh liao right....

Da ge joined us for dinner just now, aft tat we went straight to causway point to shop. I'm surprised!!! Da ge actually got for me and xiao mei something. He bought it while we were queuing to try out our clothes. Well, it's not something $$$ but it's the thoughts that counts. But think that his wife dunno anything abt it.... Thks so much, Da ge!!!

Shall stop here liao.... Need to recharge my battery aft 1 whole day outside.... **Yawnz**

2007-01-21T15:48:00.000+08:00

Woooooo~~ Jo ah, WHEN ARE WE GOING TO MIT UP!!! Haha.... Haiz, hevn't start buying new year clothes, no idea what to buy yet. Have to go and see see look look, get the idea then can buy. Must buy something which i can wear to work oso, 烦恼啊！！！

Went to company's chalet on saturday. No D&D for our company, this chalet is equal to our D&D... -_-" Haiz~~ Well, not bad for the chalet, cos my dept's colleagues all went. And from what i know, it's the 1st time that all my dept colleagues went. All of them seems to enjoy. Even my superior. I lyk the way she is ystday, can get along very well, nt lyk when we are in office.... Well, can say that i enjoy alot, cos my khakis all went... Won't felt so bad.... Had a drink wif them ystday, but my 大哥哥 lyk nt very happy when we drink.... Even when we went back late, he oso seems to be a little unhappy. Worried for us??? I dunno, haha... Just know that he keep asking us nt to stay, and keep asking us nt to stay too late, dun reached home after 12....

In the end, i reali reached home punctually at 12am... But it is coincident, haha....

2007-01-10T21:00:00.000+08:00

Alot of things seems to changed. Some things reali can changed over a night. A colleague from my dept used to eat lunch together with my superior, but alot of things happened recently. And nw, she joined us for lunch.

And just as we unexpected, my 大哥哥 also joined us for lunch... He was angry for certain issues, being accused of lazy... Poor him... At first, thought that he was only kidding to lunch out with us, but he reali joined us for lunch that day. And he have been joining us today for lunch also. Latest news, he will join us for lunch from that day onwards. Think he's reali angry with that issue. Of course, if it's me I'll also be pissed off.

So 大哥哥 is our flower in the garden now... But I teased him that he's the cow dung for the flowers.... Lolx...

2007-01-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

I'm not happy....

I'm Sad....

Vexed....

Thinking that today is the 1st day of work for year 2007, should look at things on a bright side. But being optimistic can also be demoralised. 不知该写些什么。做人真的很难。。。做好人更难。。。

2007-01-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

Hasn't been blogging for quite some time... The last week for 2006 was a busy week for me, it can also be considered a bad week for me. My mood for the last few days of 2006 was rather bad. Alot of things happen, i felt bad also. Sometimes i'm reali wondering, am i up to this job?? No matter hw well or gd 1 person did, when there's a mistake, scoldings is the only thing that they will get. So what abt those encouragement when we did well??? Again, that's life!!! And also, 人善被人欺。。。 Sometimes, reali feel that being a bad person is easier as compare to a gd person. People just dun appreciate. Sometimes reali feel that i must be selfish abit in order to protect myself, but i'm just not that kind of person....

A new year, a new start.... Just praying that year 2007 will be a good year and a good start for me and for everyone. Just pray that everything will go smoothly, a smooth sailing for my job....

2006-12-13T21:36:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging for so long. Took a day leave on last friday. Went to cameron highland with my family and relatives. Nt as fun as genting highland but a place to relax... Reached home at 1plus on sunday night, worse thing is gotta work on the following day. As what I expect, i overslept on mon, in the end gotta take cab to work.... Expensive~~~ But no choice, haiz..... Yesterday was also late for work, overslept again~ Reali feel so sleepy.... In future, betta take leave the following day after coming back from overseas.

倒霉透了。。。。这几天，真的倒霉透了。昨天给老板训了一顿，也就罢了毕竟是我自己疏忽，就当作学到一些东西。可是，最令我不能忍受的是自己部门的同事在我背后捅了几刀。。。为的是拍我老板的马屁。把她所看到的当成是我想的。Nobody is to judge what I do, unless you are my somebody. You are neither my frens nor family, who are you to judge or make comment on me. What you see doesn't mean what it is.... 我真的很气！！！心地太善良，太仁慈，总是让人欺负。别以为老虎不发威就以为它是病猫。

Somebody told me, be more 宽容 but hw to when you doesn't provoke that person and they jus step on your tail. Dun blame me for treating you bad, cos YOUR ARE the one who provoke me 1st. Fine, go ahead to badmouth and spoil my reputation sooner or later, you will get your retribution.... Curse curse curse you.....

2006-11-29T21:43:00.000+08:00

Arrrrrrrrgh.... Month end~~ A day for me to be happy and fed up... It's pay day but it's also my stock take day. Recently just had a new assistant to help me handle my mat'l, nt much complain abt this guy. Wants everything to be perfect, but somehw feel that he's abit disrespect to me. In terms of position, he still gotta listen to what i say. Hmm, in fact what i assign to him, he did... But somehw, dun lyk the way he talk. Abit straight-forward and feel very "suan" at times... Hmm, should think of a way to let him know hw to respect me.... Getting my assigned tasks done is gd, but think i must be more powerful and firm when it comes to leadership.

How come all my frens seems to be MIA... Everybody is busy working working and working~~ 我好烦，好闷。。。。Feel lyk contacting and ask one of my fren out, but reali afraid that things will happen again... In the end, i'm still the one losing out.

2006-11-26T12:55:00.000+08:00

Finally recover from my sickness. 2 days mc passed very fast. In fact, i oni used 1 day mc. The 2nd day i've actually recovered, and i actually sneak out wif jo for shopping~~ Haha... We went to the U.R.S warehouse sales, but disappointed.... We expect alot of items, but it turned out to be oni a few. Actually I've been wanting to go shopping for a long time, but seems lyk nobody have the shopping mood, lucky jo is in the shopping mood. So we went to bugis that day aft the warehouse sales, gt a few things from body shop that day. Actually felt abit sinful, cos spend $$$ again, but sometimes u gotta pamper urself aft some hard work.

Well, since my shopping mood is turn on to the fullest nw, and jo too.... Hehe, shall ask her out for shopping again, but mus wait for my coming pay 1st.... But this girl huh, haiz~~~ Reali noe hw to tempt me sia, always say buy buy buy.... Lolx... Mus control myself oso...

Sometimes jus dun understand.... 当你开始放弃一些事，它偏偏又找回你。。。Well, to make yourself miserable or nt, is up to individual.... Depends on hw you will look and handle on these things... For me, 跟着感觉走吧~~~

2006-11-22T17:08:00.000+08:00

我生病了。。。Today nv went to work, cos i've fall sick. Ysterday time out 1 hr early b4 work, cos i can't stand it anymore. After reaching home ystday, i started to vomit and feel soooo cold. So went to see doctor. I'm issued 2days mc for fever and gastric flu. Ystday whole night never eat a thing, doctor also ask me nt to eat, but can drink some barley etc, at least sweetness won't make me feel hungry. Got a jab ystday, so painful till now i still feel painful. In the end, after coming home from clinic, i did not eat and drink anything. I went straight to bed cos i reali feel unwell. Did nt take the medicine even. But woke up in the middle of the night, ard 2am to take my medicine, cos i reali feel bad.

Today felt much more betta, but i still feel giddy. 2days of mc, think tmr will be much more betta, shld be able to work, but of cos i'll make full usage of my mc. Fri mus go back to work, think there'll be alot of things waiting for me to do. Think some of my work is covered by my colleague, poor thing of her, cos she's oso sick. Of cos, will treat her drink for helping me...

2006-11-20T22:21:00.000+08:00

Last wkend was considered a fruitful wkend for me.... Saturday after work, went to meet up with chun they all. We went to film the variety show host by Jeff. Think the show is called "The Star Planner". Jeff is reali very charming. I lyk him sooooo much, wahahaha... Well, think he's one of the celeb tat i 看好 in mediacorp. He reali gt alot of potential.... Hehe, of cos we won't forget to take photos with them. Oh ya, the co-host is Kevin So... 1 of the singer from “梦飞船“..... Well, but i find tat Jeff is much more friendly and he's very concern of ppl oso, haha... Well, think we all enjoy the shooting alot too....

Monday bluessss for today again. Recently there's alot of problems in our dept... Just dun understand wat my superior is thinking. The way she react doesn't coordinate with wat she said. There's this saying in chinese: 口事心扉..... Just can't get it, y my dept will end up this way.

2006-11-11T18:19:00.000+08:00

Haiz, previously the blog seems to hav some problems. Can't publish my blog so i saved it as draft, nw dunno where it has gone liao. Forget it, lazy to find oso.... Another boring saturday~~ Suppose to have gone out, but everything is cancelled because of the rain.... In the end, stay at home to upload my pics from handphone to my pc. Of cos, oso upload new songs to my handphone and mp3... 雨天真的很好睡。。。 But dun reali feel lyk sleeping.

我又被取了个外号。。。 It's a long story.... ‘盼盼’is the nick tat my colleagues called me.... No idea y they called me 盼盼 right.... Of cos, i won't mention in my blog, pai seh one.... Haha.... Oh ya, promised to upload my colleague's son photo last time but did nt... Only get to upload the photo to my pc today....

Ain't he cute and handsome... Haha... Frankly speaking, he do look alot lyk his dad... But he gt a bad habit, he lyk to frown lyk his dad too, haha...

2006-10-29T21:07:00.000+08:00

Went to work on this saturday. It was suppose to be my off day, but i choose to go, cos i wan to stock take on my slow moving materials. Yes, it's month end again.... Was suppose to go out wif chun and ben they all on saturday evening to chill out, but i turn them dwn. So sori, cos im reali veyr tired.... I miss a chance to see someone again, wahaha... Well, hopefully the nxt time round we go, tat someone will be goin oso. Anyway, in the end i went out wif my nephew to had supper. Went to jalan kayu for prata and had a chat for awhile. Happen to saw my sis's colleagues....

Today was considered a boring day for me. Stayed at home the whole day, dun feel lyk goin anywhere, in fact nt much place to go oso. Went out will oni be spending money on 没必要 stuffs... In the end, stayed at home to finish up my korea show, "Goong". Sometimes felt that this show is abit boring, storyline very draggy. Dun reali make me feel lyk goin aft it episode aft episode, tats y it took me sooooo long to finish watching. But the whole story, i still pity "lu jun".... To me, he's the most 可怜和无辜 person....

2006-10-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

好闷，好烦啊！！又要到了月底，要开始点货了。。。工作了快四个月，在这间公司还过得去。同事之间都还相处不错。可是有时也觉得好累。很多同事都怕我的老板，结果他们想查询的资料，现在都跑来找我帮忙。当然如果我懂得，我都会尽量帮忙，因为这是我份内的工作。。。今天在喝下午茶的时候碰见一个同事，结果被其他同事捉弄。。。嗨，希望有些同事跟我说的话不会是真的。。。要不然烦恼会更多。。。

2006-10-26T21:48:00.000+08:00

Had a long holiday from saturday till tuesday.... Though never went for any holiday, but had fully usage on those days. Went out with my colleagues on mon, cos mon was our company shutdwn.... 好听叫company shutdwn, 难听actually is being forced to take leave. Anyway, mon got to see my colleague's son. So kawaii~~ handsome too, wahaha.... Reali look like his dad alot. Shall upload his pic nxt time, nw too lazy liao....

Tuesday 过得最充实。。。 Aft waking up, went to had my breakfast cum lunch. Aft which went to kusu island... Actually is to go there for a walk, or i should say "family day" in the end went to 拜拜 oso. Aft tat went to sim lim square to look for monitor, then take cab dwn to tampines to mit my cousin and his family. And from tampines, we went to changi village for our dinner. Quite a sumptuous dinner....

2006-10-11T21:37:00.000+08:00

Hihi... Haven been updating for abt 2 wks....?? Where gt the time, haha... Frankly speaking, dun reali have the time even if yes, i'm oso lazy to blog, partly nth much for me to reali talk abt. Everyday is almost the same, daily routine... Just some little interesting stuffs lyk jokes from colleagues. Well sometimes reali also headache with colleagues.

Yes, my probation is over, today finally received my confirmation letter... Feedback from my superior, nt bad... But there's still alot for me to improve, goin into courses soon... Graduate almost half a yr, goin to take up course let me feel weird, meaning study again but this time round im nt a full time student. 1st course to take is the negotiation skills, haiz... Sound abit boring, haha... Anyway, mus do some research on which sch to get in. Aft this course, nxt will be supply chain... Frens, any lobang which sch is gd??? lolx...

Been in working society for 3 mths, throughout everyday's work I've learnt and understand alot of things. Maintaining relationship with colleagues are quite difficult at times, some ppl are so fake. Being able to continue study is a good thing, but no one is ever goin to be a full time student for life...Things aren't as simple as wat we usually think.... Well, there's still some colleagues that brings laughter to me....

2006-09-22T21:27:00.000+08:00

Time passes very fast, my probation is coming to an end soon. And today is xiao mei mei's last day in our company as a temp receptionist... Well, among all my colleagues, she's the most clicked person with me... But lucky there's still 2 more colleagues who are my khakis. Hmm, really wondering hw will it be like without this xiao mei mei... Everything will be back to normal, working quietly....

This whole week is a happening week.... Well, started to pick up things bits by bits. Learning through everyday's life, but still can't reali get used to my boss temper, sometimes reali felt demoralised by wat she said. Yes, this week is a happening week, actually alot of things happened last wk, but this happening continued to this wk... Hmm, headache happening, but quite fun oso...

2006-09-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

Haven been updating for quite some time. Well, dun reali feel lyk blogging cos nth much to blog too, partly recently i've been bz working. Starting from this mth, my work load has start to increase, more and more things to do. Everyday gotta chk my inventory, assuring that my stock in the store telly with my sys... Goin to end my probation soon... Dunno whether i'll be able to convert to permanent staff or nt, hopefully i will.

Gotta noe more colleagues in this co nw... Though some of them dun reali gt any work in contact, but still able to small chat wif them. Some of them are reali quite fun to talk to, get to noe a colleague from production, my colleagues and i gif him a nick called "mr cool". Cos when he was quiet, he gt the cool look, even if he speak, there's oso a cool look... Quite a nice chap to chat wif, recently get to talk more wif him...

Recently my SE handphone RIP le.... Gotta spend $$$ to buy handphone again... Haiz... Jus praying hard that everyday will pass smoothly for me... *Pray Pray*

2006-08-31T21:39:00.000+08:00

Well, have some updates for today... Yesterday night meet up with chunhui and ben, they bought me 3 small cakes, 2 chocolate and 1 tiramisu. Well, they taste very nice except the tiramisu, the 3 of us boycott it, haha... Hmm, quite touched and surprise yesterday, never expect them to come and celebrate for my birthday... Thank you guys!!! My 2 BEST frens, haha...

Today was rather a tiring day for work. Have been in the store for stock-take almost the whole day... Almost feel like crying, but don't really want to give up, cos it's just a small challenge only, if i give up now, i won't be able to succeed in anything for future. Anyway, i must still thank those store colleagues who help me yesterday and today... Sorry for troubling them also. Well, got to talk to them while stock taking, somehow got to know them better and pull the bonds closer.... Some colleagues there are some how not bad, get to joke and tease around with them. Haha...

Conclusion: today is a damn tiring day, tomorrow will also be a busy, miserable day... "Ming Tian Hui Geng Hao!!!"

2006-08-30T20:40:00.000+08:00

Well, time for some updates... Not much to updates for last week, actually quite worried about chunhui last week, hopefully her problems could be solved as soon as possible. Monday went for dinner with Jo they all, cos my birthday coming... Today is my birthday, wanted to get leave actually, but it's end of the month, i've got to stock take. Since i'm still not familiar with those stocks, so i did not take any leave today, if not tomorrow will be a more miserable day for me.

Did not finish the stock take for the category of resin today, so tomorrow got to continue again.... Haiz, miserable~~~ Tomorrow still must stock take on the category of packaging, hopefully that want will not be so miserable.... Did not really celebrate my birthday today, in fact i don't have the habit of celebrating. The most is going out with friends to have a meal. Really appreciate those friends who still remember my birthday, thks so much...

Nothing much to update, think i shall stop here...

2006-08-19T12:36:00.000+08:00

Updates of the week, haha... Well, last saturday was working, and we had the praying session for the 7th month, so my boss pray and got some numbers from those good buddies. When i reached home on last saturday, i never go and buy, guess what... The numbers came out on sunday 4D, and i forgot to buy for sunday, haiz~~~

Think i'm getting used to my boss temper... My colleagues would ask me how's my weather in my department everyday. But think i'm getting used to it already, so i always told them that not bad, haha... But when she's really in a very BAD mood, i will still be very scared. Cos it's really thunder and storm... Lolx...

Yesterday's time passes quite fast. There's work to keep me occupied, at the meantime, i was chatting on msn with my friend. Yesterday chat alot with 1 of my ITE friend. Hmm, not so close with him but still all right. But think yesterday was the 1st time that we chat so much, told him about something, and somehow he make me understand and clear all those things that i've been vexed about previously also. Thinking back, we know each other in ITE(TP), classmates for 2 weeks plus and we both came to poly, and end up in different class, but we still can keep in contact till now. Well, yesterday chat with him really made me realise alot of things...

Having a friend to chat when working, the time really pass very fast, especially when you are not that occupied with work. Yesterday went home straight and had a quick shower, after that went out again to have dinner with my friends. Hmm, had a sumptuous dinner, it's all our 1st time to had "zhi cha" dinner together... Haha... After dinner, went to have a bowling session, FUN!!!, Haha... But i played until my thumb's nail become botak... Sob sob~~~ But at least, it's not painful when peeling off the nails... Great to had these 2 CLICKED friends!!! You know who you are... Hehe...

2006-08-13T15:18:00.000+08:00

I'm vexed....

I'm troubled...

I'm sad...

My weekend was rather a boring day. Saturday went to work... Company got praying on saturday, but i did not stay long, left at around 12.30pm. Never go anywhere after that, straight back home. Don't know want to ask who out, and don't really want to go out, so went home and had a nap. Well, just take it as having a good rest at home. Ever since i've start work till now, i've been going out every weekends, never really stay at home and had a good rest. Suddenly very free on weekends, also makes me feel weird, haha...

I'm not being myself lately... I may look normal in front of everybody... But who really knows what i'm thinking, how i'm feeling.... Sometimes, no point i'm the one putting in effort in some things, it takes two hands to clap.... No one can help me with this problem, i also don't know what i should do now. Yes, i'm telling friends that i'm not going to think about it, but sometimes it just popped out just like that...

2006-08-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a relax day for work. But don't know why, i'm so tired... There's nothing much for me to do today, just some daily routine, those updates of POs, DOs, issuing POs, sending mails to supplier, contacting supplier etc.

After coming back from lunch, did some updates again. But after a while, went to fold incense paper together with my boss and colleague. Well, my company quite emphasie on the lunar 7th month so we got no choice but to help out. Anyway, since i'm free so not much complaints. Today had a so called chit chat with my boss while folding those incense paper. In a way, got to know my boss and colleague better. Frankly speaking, my boss is not a bad person when she's nt working or what, quite a easy person to talk to. But when it comes to work, she's really serious and she can be very fierce when you did something wrong. Got to get used to her temper in fact.

I'm vexed~~~ Thinking of the same old problems. This issue always makes me vexed over it, and it always makes me feel so tong ku.... Saying not to think about it is easy, but it is always easier to be said than done. Alot of things is beyond my control...

2006-08-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

Ok, a little bit of updates on what and how I've been. Basically, nothing much. Working everyday. But after working for one month plus in this company, I've observed alot of things. Well, bad and good things... Anyway, there's office politics in every company, that's working society... My boss is a very fierce and short tempered person, but sometimes i also pity her.... Though everyone is scared of her, but seems like she's also being back stabbed alot of times. What to do, this is what working society is... My turn will be here sooner or later... Just that I'm still new here.... Haha~~

Nothing much happen to me these few days, anyway i also dun wan anything to happen to me... Even if i want, i'll only one good things to happen... Ok, i being naive on it, haha... Almost got scolded by a supplier on friday.... But after i had explained and clarified with the supplier, she sound rather better after that. She also taught me how i should handle that issue. At first i'm really pissed off and angry with that supplier, but after the whole issue, i told myself that though i'm being said by the supplier, but i've learnt something... As there's a saying: "Always learn from mistakes, no mistakes there will be no good results produce..." Actually there's also a thing that happen which makes me rather bothered these few days. But don't really want to think and mention about it anymore now. Hope that we will makes everything clearer again next time...

Today went to get my hair done.. The results turn out good, but i'm not really satisfied, cos it's not really what i want too... But it doesn't turn out bad, so better don't "hiam" so much lah... Just now chun and ben came over to my house to pass me something. They never told me what they are passing to me, everything is so sudden... Ben bought me a CHEESE BROWNIE... Yummy~~~ My favourite, cheese and chocolate... It's sinful, but it's my favourite, haha... Frankly speaking, i'm really TOUCHED... They actually thought of me and bought the brownie all the way to me... A BIG THANK YOU TO BEN AND CHUN.... Muacks~~~

2006-07-30T15:26:00.000+08:00

Yeah, shld hav some updates... Haven been blogging for quite some time le... Hmm, have been bz working working and working. Well, think i'm starting to get reali bz wif work, recently the moment the time strike 8.30am which is my time to start work, i'll start to get bz till my lunch time, aft lunch i'll get bz till knock off. Haha... But dun hav to OT at this moment so still alright. And my colleagues are saying tat seems lyk im starting to get bz... One of them oso told me tat i might get much more bz nxt mth, which oni a few days away from nxt mth liao, haha....

Ok, other than working, for leisure, nth much actually. But since i start work till nw, almost every saturday i've been goin out, even i've gotta work on tat particular saturday. To be frank, it's reali very tiring, but still ok acutally. Cos get to relax in a way. Yst mit up wif chun, went for pool session... Well, jack came along wif us, 2gather wif his fren. To be frank, dun reali lyk his fren... But anyway think we wont be miting up so frequently... So heck care, haha...

2006-07-23T21:30:00.000+08:00

I'm having mood swings recently... Very serious i can say... Ystday went to sentosa wif my frens. Well, went wif chun n ben 2gather, but halfway thru wif jo they all... Cos we r celebrating karen's bday, so no choice gotta leave chun they all. Abit pai seh for chun they all too, cos nt able to acc them.

Haiz, dunno wat happen recently. Jo they all said i was very fierce... Am I?? Haha... Well, i admit i was in a bad mood when goin to hav dinner, cos too hungry liao. And usually when i'm toooo hungry.... Anyway, sori to all my frens ystday if i did "fa pi qi" on u all... Reali sori.

Think i'm reali in a very bad mood situation, even myself oso dunn0 y... I'm thinking alot of things recently again. Eva since i start work, i've been thinking alot. Too many tat even me myself oso dunno wat r the problems. I'm reali very tired!!!!~~~~ Mentally & physically. Everyday is the same...

2006-07-20T21:18:00.000+08:00

These few days aren't my days... Jus so unlucky. Ystday, b4 I left for work, my specs lens fall out. Well, lucky in a way cos i haven leave my hse, if nt i reali dunno wat to do. Lucky tat i've still gt a pair of contact lens, so no choice but to wear contact lens. In the end, i missed my bus due to changing to contact lens.

Today oso doesn't seems a lucky day for me. When i almost reached my office, my bag spoilt. Haiz, jus dun understand y i seems to be so unlucky these few days. Gt a bad phenomenen for tmr, hopefully i'm jus being sensitive... Pray hard hard!!!! Well, aft working for a few wks, find tat my dept colleagues are rather gd, of cos there's sure pros and cons.

Had a dream last nite... A gd one or bad?? Well, shld say it's a gd one, but one tat will nt come true, no matter hw hard I try... Everyday is having the same routine, doin the same thing. Morning wake up, go to work. Aft work, go hm, hav a shower, dinner, relax, then times up, go and slp... Wat's the meaning of life??? Having some happening once in a blue moon doesn't seems to be a bad thing, haha....

2006-07-16T14:23:00.000+08:00

Ystday was my shift to work for saturday. Basically, my purpose for turning up for work was to shw my face oni, haha... I've gt nth to do ystday for work, update some of the stuffs, all it took was oni a few mins and everything was done. Aft tat 1 one my temp colleague added me into msn, so we were chatting from 11 plus till we knock off... Ystday was his last day of work, so he added us into his msn... As i said, it's jus my beginning for work, so naturally it's rather slacking cos i've nt picked up all the skills yet. Once i've picked up everything, things will be different by then...

Aft work, i went hm for a rest.... Went out again at 4 plus... Wanted to cancel my outing wif chun they all last min cos i'm reali very tired but we wanted to celebrate ben's bday so in the end i still went. Gotta noe a new fren ystday, he was chun's n ben's fren... A rather quiet guy, but i've realise tat he can actually jk n tease ppl, but jus wondering y he's soooo quiet even his own frens he is oso quiet.... Gt the urge of wanting to disturb him, haha.... But jus gotta noe him oni, so betta dun, haha... Went to hav steamboat at marina south ystday, it's been a long time since i went there... Aft tat, we went to sing k... It's my 1st time goin wif so many ppl, altogether 9 ppl... Wow, haha... It's a great day ystday, though some of them we jus gotta noe, but we dun feel awkward or wat. Everybody is enjoying!!!! Went hm at 1plus aft the k, though tired, but reali very FUN!!!!

2006-07-12T21:31:00.000+08:00

2nd wk of work... Well, previously my immediate supervisor was on leave, so everything seems to be smooth... In fact it does nt go smoothly... There's alot of things tat is suppose to be done by me but i did nt do it. Nt becos i'm lazy or wat, but i'm nt observant enuff or shld i say i oni look at things on the surface instead.... In the end, there's quite a few things for me to do ystday. But i managed to get it done smoothly.

Today is a BAD day for me... Being said by my sup a few times... Well, partly she's nt feeling well, so it's understandable... Frankly speaking, the kind of feelings is nt gd even though u r being said instead of scolding... I'm trying very hard nw, but somehw i feel tat i'm struggling. Beginning is always tedious, tats wat i kip telling myself. But i'm so afraid tat i'm goin to breakdwn sooner or later.

Everything is sooooo different during schooling and working. I'm trying very hard to balance myself nw. Jus wondering hw long will it takes.... JIA YOU BAH, ANTZ!!!!!!

2006-07-05T21:49:00.000+08:00

Reali very tired aft working.... Other than the 1st day, today & tues were abit bz for me. In fact, i've learnt alot of new things, but blur oso... Wanted to note it dwn, but my boss talk too fast liao, gt time to listen, no time to write. Anyway, aft she explained, i've start to do, aft tat tried to recall wat she said and then note it dwn. Well, it's jus the beginning and i'm new to this line, so there's alot for me to learn...

Hopefully, these few days i'll get familiar wif those tat i've learnt. Think aft tat i'll learnt more in depth, tat one is more chim... Haiz.... Tat one oso much more stressful.... Mayb i'm trying very hard to prove myelf tat i can do it, sometimes tend to make careless mistakes, these few days oso felt so stress... Haiz....

Having some negative thoughts again.... Thinkin abt some issues, people, work etc....

2006-07-03T19:52:00.000+08:00

Well, shall update on wat i've did recently... Last wk was my last wk for slacking, but nv reali went out to enjoy or wat. Saturday went to pasir ris for liyi's bday bbq. Nt much of my sec frens turned up, in fact oni me, chun, shunjiao & keat... Oh, of cos ben was there too. Though nt many of them turned up, we did had a great nite... Chatting & laughing thru out. Actually, wanted to leave at 9plus, but ben offer to send us hm, so we stay till 11plus... Thks man!!!!

Today was my 1st day of work... Hmm, find myself unlucky today... Firstly, i was late for work, but luckily nv get scolding or wat.... Then tour ard the company, basically jus my dept, then introduction... Can't rmb all those names of the ppl, shld say can't get in to my brain... lolx... My brain is totally EMPTY today. Reali suay sia, my seat is jus beside GM's rm, the 1st person he'll see is me when he step out of his rm... Tat feng shui nt gd, printer behind me, everyone keep passing by, haiz... Wanna eat snake oso cannot, wahahaha~~ Then my manager's seat is diagonally behind me.. Haiz, overall i shld say whoeva walk pass me can see my pc, so wat i'm doin they oso noe.... Arrrrrrrrrrrgh~~

My whole day of work is damn BORING.... Almost the whole mornin, i'm reading up document called process file masterlist.... Trying very hard to keep awake, but still will doze off.... Aft lunchtime, i'm asked to do data entry, finish liao but mus do housekeeping. Tat one will comtinue tmr, hehe....

Sometimes reali HATE office work, soooooooo boring..... My sis say it's 1st day so it's lyk tat one... Hopefully, the ppl will be more interactive, if nt i'll hav the phobia tat i gt during iap again, lolx.... Conclusion is..... Though nth much to do today, it's still very tiring......

2006-06-26T15:20:00.000+08:00

Shall update abit on wat i've done these few days... Thurs went to sign my letter of appointment wif a company. Fri nth much, stay at hm the whole day to rest.... Cos went out for consecutive days liao...

Sat was a fun day... Woke up very early, cos miting my frens to sentosa for 1 day activity!!! Though tiring but very fun... Went to hav our breakfast first b4 goin to sentosa, this time went 2gather wif chun they all... Got ben's campmates oso... Had a fun day, went cannoeing oso, dun reali noe hw to canoe but ben they all noe, so still alright... It's FUN!!!

Sun intend to mit shunjiao cos she wanna buy clothes, but did nt mit her in the end. Cos too tired already, so decided to stay at hm...

2006-06-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

Today was my graduation ceremony for my diploma, finally i'm graduate officially graduate... Well, Nth happening in fact. Reach sch early in the morning, chit chat wif frens for a while then went for registration. Again gotta wait and queue up for entering the auditorium. Gradutation ceremony is boring. Waiting for the guests to arrived, then listen to all those speeches... In fact, i did nt listen to it much, it's jus soooo boring... Almost fell aslp, kip on yawning.

It's so sudden when they r goin to gif out the cert, no warning given to us, and we have to leave our seat already to receive our cert. Mayb i'm the 1st few cos it's in alphabetical order and signal were nt given, so i'm quite nervous in fact... Aft the whole ceremony, it's photo session. haha... Took quite some pics wif all my frens, and had autographs taken from some of my frens... Mayb i'll upload it once i gt it from my frens... Well, overall today is a memorable day for me and all my frens who went for the ceremony....

2006-06-20T18:23:00.000+08:00

Today went for another interview at s'pore power services. A semi government company. Quite lyk the env but the interview is soooooo sucky.... Panel interview but they interview 4 candidates 2gather at the same time... Working hrs wise is sucky for wkends oso. 4hrs for wkends but rotating shift kind.... Anyway i did well in their typing test, heez.... Too bad, i already accept the offer for the buyer and i can go & sign the confirmation letter this wk.

The agency called back for my feedback jus nw, so i jus told her wat i've felt overall... Tmr will be goin for the grad ceremony... Haiz, mus wake up soooo early lor, hw sia....

2006-06-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

Nth happening these few days, everyday is having the same routine... I've started to look for job again, though i've agree to the buyer position but since tat i did nt sign the letter of confirmation i can still look for betta choices... Mayb they found someone betta than me, they can oso call and reject me too. So still looking for job at the time being.

Coming mon goin dwn to job agency, then tues gonna go for interview at somerset as for wed is my grad ceremony. Suddenly dun feel lyk goin, sian.... Have to reach sch at 8.30am early in the mornin but the ceremony start at 10plus if i'm nt wrong. Eva since i dun hav to go sch, i've nt been waking up early, thinking of waking up so early on wed, already sian half liao... Anyway hopefully i'll be able to wake up bah...

2006-06-09T22:59:00.000+08:00

Gd news!!!! Today woke up received a msg from caller alert, tat number is quite familiar cos seems lyk the number from the company tat i went for interview ystday. But i did nt called back, cos im nt sure. So in the aftnoon, they called again but i did nt heard my phone ring, so again a missed call. But i did called back aft tat, but no one picked up. In the end, they called again. To my surprise, they said tat they hav decided to recruit me, i do nt hav to go for 2nd interview oso.... Pay & benefits are ok, but as usual there's 3mths probation, some other benefits are upon confirmation... I'm reali surprised, cos it's my 1st interview & i nv expect tat they wanna recruit me.... But i'm oso wondering if there's betta offer ahead of me, vice versa, so i'm actually considering jus nw, so i told them tat i'll get back to them again... But nw, think most probably i'll agree to it.

But my head reali hurts nw, cos gt a big bao on my forehead. Got it back from the company tat i went interview ystday... Got hit by something.... My sis say tat she was wondering ystday already when i told her i gt hit by something at tat company, tat it might be something gd goin to happen to me... hahahaha, lyk tat oso can.... So today came the news, mayb tat bao reali bring some gd news to me... Who noes, hehe....

2006-06-08T19:31:00.000+08:00

Ok, everything is fine nw.... Ystday went out wif andrew & fay. Acc andrew to buy things, oni can see again... But andrew treat us for dinner cos we acc him to buy things, hahaha.... Sending soooo many resumes these few days, finally there's 1 reply, asking me to go dwn for interview.

So today went for the interview... Hmm, nervous in fact. But when i went in, the nervousness is all gone. Dunno y oso, lolx... Met hongyun on my way to interview, so coincidence. He thought i went to work, but i went for interview... The way we communicate is quite funny, tat some ppl in the bus was giving those ??? faces. But he did gif me some encouragement, felt encouraged oso.... Make me less nervous too....

But think wont get job anyway, but at least i've gain an exp for interview....

2006-06-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

Nt in a gd mood from ystday till today... Speak less than 10 sentences from ystday till today.... Either to my bro or my mum. As for my dad, i hardly gt things to talk to, always less than 10 sentences. Ystday had a big quarrel wif my mum, jus for a small matter, but the small matter dig out all those history. And we had cold war since ystday, it's always lyk tat when i quarrel wif my mum. Am I being tooooo much, i reali dunno... Who will reali appreciate wat i had done for them???? Am I calculative, i dunno..... My mum always say dun be soooo calculative on wat u hav done, can/willingly to do won't die one....

I've always listen to wat she say, but wat do I get in return???? Nth!!!!! Nobody appreciate.... Even she herself oso can't understand hw I feel... THIS WORLD IS ALWAYS SO UNFAIR!!! Nw i finally understand hw it feels being a middle child, sandwich in between. Wif a dad who pampered my sis the most and as if my bro & I are jus somebody. And wif a younger bro who nids to kip a lookout alot by my mum since he's a teenager. Me, jus felt so left out.... Who can reali understand me? NOBODY.... My mum say i dunno hw to think, can't understand her, then who reali understand me, who reali noe hw i feel....

So, by working & giving allowance every mth, u'll be lyk a god..... Anyway, in my parent's eyes, i'm jus a useless person and to my mum, i'm always a person who dunno hw to think and dun understand a person feelings. Finding myself soooo STUPID, wat i did the past few yrs did nt get any appreciation... Taking up part time job last time was trying to earn my own allowance & lessen their burden. From sch gotta rush to work & back from work still gotta help out hse work. But nth is appreciated, y oni im the one doin tat time. I'm nt the oni child at hm.... All I did is zi zhao de mah....

Alot of issues is floating on my mind.... Wo hen lei, zhen de hao lei..... Mayb i shall live my own life... Or mayb the one who died last time shld be me, then at least i won't hav so much things to bother.....

2006-06-05T13:57:00.000+08:00

Haven been blogging for quite some time.... Last few days have been goin out...

Fri: Went out wif poly frens. A gathering and a belated celebration for fay's bday. Finally get to mit up wif karen n ST. But karen oni able to stay until 6pm, so jo n ST dun reali get to mit her. Went to watch X-Men III aft tat, quite a nice shw, exciting.... Aft finish the shw actually wanted to mit up wif chun n jack for a pool session, but im miting shunjiao the nxt day and it's quite late liao so did nt mit up wif her in the end....

Sat: Went out wif shunjiao. Acc her to look for clothes, but in the end she did nt bought anything. As i expected, cos she always lyk tat. Got to go out alot of times, then she can saw something which is of her taste... Overall, it's tired the whole saturday... Went to my cousin's hse aft tat, go there do nth, jus chat wif my cousin and play play station 2gather wif my niece.

Sun: Woke up at 11plus, cos saturday reached hm at 12plus & slept at 1plus. Aft waking up nt long, went out again wif my cousin's wife & her kids. Went to shopping, but gotta help take care 2 kids, tired~~~~

Today: Nth special, I SHLD SAY A BAD DAY.... But i jus HATE staying at hm... I HATE THIS FAMILY!!!!! I'M JUS SOMEBODY, WHAT I DID IS ALWAYS WRONG. I'M SELFISH, LAZY, STUPID, DUMB, NT UNDERSTANDABLE, A PERSON WHO NOBODY LUV, BE IT FAMILY OR FRENS... I'M A LONER... A PERSON WHO LOOKS CHEERFUL, BUT DO I..... HOW MANY FRENS OR PPL OUT THERE REALI NOE WAT I'M THINKING.....

2006-06-01T15:52:00.000+08:00

Today went to job agency. Last few days sent my resume to look for job, some were sent to job agency, so this particular agency called me the day aft i sent the resume.... Saying there's a vacancy in admin but 1yr contract. I'm fine wif it anyway cos at least it can gain me experience.

So today went dwn for interview from the agency. Everything looks gd, and in fact i passed the interview by tat job agency. So tat agent told me the details abt the job scope, but in depth details mus asked tat company myself liao. So actually tat agent say if possible tmr will be able to go for interview, but tmr miting frens liao, so i told her betta make it mon. At least some time to prepare oso... Btw if successful, work will be at lorong chuan, but interview mus go to jurong cos the HQ is over there... Hmm, hopefully everything will go smoothly lor....

2006-05-31T17:01:00.000+08:00

Sooooooooo slpy.... Yesterday slept at 2am... Hmmm, nv log in to msn at night yesterday, but was on the phone wif yuen kuang. Called him at 11plus and we chat until 2am then hang up. Actually he wanted to continue, but cos today i'm miting someone at 12.30 so afraid tat i can't wake up. In the end no choice, gotta stop and chat wif him some other day....

Ystday sent quite a few resumes out... Today receive 1 of the job agency call asking for more details abt wat kind of jobs i'm looking for.... So tat agency called at in the aftnoon, saying tat wanna mit me tmr to talk abt a job tat they had on hand nw... Dunno hw is it lyk, cos haven got the job scope details, jus noe it's a 1yr contract admin job. Haiz, though 1 yr contract oni but nvm lah, if everything successful jus work for 1yr liao then see hw again... Betta than nth lor....

2006-05-30T00:09:00.000+08:00

Jus nw was watching the results for the superband... Haiz, jus dun understand lor, hw come the "xia ri feng" can still get in. Indeed, this wk they seems betta but they r always nt steady lor. As compare to those bands being kick out, they reali cannot make it....

Called Yuen Kuang on the 25th to wish him happy bday... Nv reali get to talk much cos i'm outside wif chunhui. So chun actually oso get to talk wif him for awhile. We did nt get to chat on the phone for hours lyk wat we usually did. So i was thinking of calling him when i got hm, but when i reached hm, it was quite late & i'm quite tired so i nv called. Actually, I'm reali quite worried abt him cos heard some news from him. So when he reached sg ystday, he called me again.

But he called at the wrong timing again, i'm outside wif andrew and fay. So couldnt reali talk again. It was quite late when i reached hm again, so nv call again. I noe he had alot of things wanna say, he's sad.... Think reali mus call him some day to hav a gd chat... A day whereby no one can disturb & we r both free to chat... Cos we usually chat for hrs...

2006-05-24T15:20:00.000+08:00

Feeling soooo slpy.... Yawnz~ Have been job searching for a few hrs online, jus by reading up those requirements already making me tired.Conclusion: Job search is tiring, haha... Met up wif weirong on mon. Jus acc him to buy memory card at amk central. Then ystday met up wif shuyin, acc her to do pedicure. Then shop ard at amk central, again.... Aft met up wif weirong again, cos shuyin nv seen him for a long time liao... Cos shuyin came to amk, and weirong happen to be at hm, so ask him whether wanna mit up wif shuyin or nt lor. I'm fine anyway, cos the chances for us to see each other are higher than shuyin.

Aft tat mit up wif my advisor, did nt managed to tok to weirong oso. Anyway shuyin gotta tok to him. Finally they gotta mit up lor, cos always saying wanna mit up, in the end never. Tmr is yuen kuang's bday then the day aft is fay's bday. Dunno wat to get for fay, as for yuen kuang, normally i'll jus msg him oni...