It has been a month since everything happen till now. Don't feel any better in fact, though i might look happy everyday. Is that the real me??? No longer anymore. I'm no longer being treated the way it is as before. Though we had cleared everything, but everything has changed. Well, he is still concern about me, but we can no longer joke as before.... As what we used to joke.

Maybe it's true, we need some time to warm up. But what's changed will not be back to what it is. I told him that i hate her alot. We are at fault, but we did nothing. She makes everything turn out this way. Feeling so so so tired... Sometimes even me myself don't know what i want and how i feel, why i feel this way. The pain is unbearable, i'm getting more and more emotional....