Nt in a gd mood from ystday till today... Speak less than 10 sentences from ystday till today.... Either to my bro or my mum. As for my dad, i hardly gt things to talk to, always less than 10 sentences. Ystday had a big quarrel wif my mum, jus for a small matter, but the small matter dig out all those history. And we had cold war since ystday, it's always lyk tat when i quarrel wif my mum. Am I being tooooo much, i reali dunno... Who will reali appreciate wat i had done for them???? Am I calculative, i dunno..... My mum always say dun be soooo calculative on wat u hav done, can/willingly to do won't die one....

I've always listen to wat she say, but wat do I get in return???? Nth!!!!! Nobody appreciate.... Even she herself oso can't understand hw I feel... THIS WORLD IS ALWAYS SO UNFAIR!!! Nw i finally understand hw it feels being a middle child, sandwich in between. Wif a dad who pampered my sis the most and as if my bro & I are jus somebody. And wif a younger bro who nids to kip a lookout alot by my mum since he's a teenager. Me, jus felt so left out.... Who can reali understand me? NOBODY.... My mum say i dunno hw to think, can't understand her, then who reali understand me, who reali noe hw i feel....

So, by working & giving allowance every mth, u'll be lyk a god..... Anyway, in my parent's eyes, i'm jus a useless person and to my mum, i'm always a person who dunno hw to think and dun understand a person feelings. Finding myself soooo STUPID, wat i did the past few yrs did nt get any appreciation... Taking up part time job last time was trying to earn my own allowance & lessen their burden. From sch gotta rush to work & back from work still gotta help out hse work. But nth is appreciated, y oni im the one doin tat time. I'm nt the oni child at hm.... All I did is zi zhao de mah....

Alot of issues is floating on my mind.... Wo hen lei, zhen de hao lei..... Mayb i shall live my own life... Or mayb the one who died last time shld be me, then at least i won't hav so much things to bother.....